Posts Tagged ‘motivation

I know I’m getting pretty behind on my daily writing, however, I’ve been stuck in this weird limbo feeling for the past two weeks as I’ve been waiting to hear back on a situation. I don’t want to talk about it until I know it’s really happening, so because I don’t want to talk about it, I’ve basically not been wanting to really talk about anything. That’s a pretty lame excuse for not writing though, so really I just need to stop letting myself get dissuaded by excuses.

As I have mentioned, I am currently taking classes in Kabbalah which help me better understand the mind and the ego. It’s been extremely transformative for me in terms of understanding my own responsibility in all of my reactions to things in life.

More than that, Kabbalah has taught me a deeper understanding for the universe and the fundamental explanation of why we are in the energetic climate that we are currently experiencing, and what I can do personally in order to better humanity.

Check out this week’s post from Kabbalah Student, Billy Phillips. The video at the end absolutely blew my mind, because I not only understood and believed it to be true, but I felt it was true in my soul. The purpose of all of creation and how we achieve utopia and peace on earth is explained in the video. Which to think that we are in the moment in time where this information is now being disseminated to the masses and a global awakening IS in fact happening… is mind blowingly awesome.

The energy of the world right now is slowly shifting towards realization that we are all one, and what we do to another, we do to ourselves. As we become aware of this, it is my belief that we will rapidly see our world shift towards a place centered in love and peace. Love for all our fellow man kind, just as we love ourselves. Those in positions of power who have been driven by greed and corruption for so long will even be converted to love. The power structure currently in place IS coming down. Trust in that, and know that incredible, amazing, things are starting to happen in our world. We are alive during the conscious awakening of the world, and if we focus on our own awakening and learning during this time we will reap incredible benefits and rewards almost immediately within our lives.

Such an incredible time to be alive.

Sit on that information for a minute and then think about what you are doing to discover and unleash your own gifts to the world right now. Is your path rooted in love? Love of self, and love for your fellow man? That is what your aim should be. To live in love, by following the pull of your heart. Heart centered living. This is the only path forward to true happiness in life.

Not sure how you do this? Start by tuning into your heart. Meditate. Quiet your mind. Tune into your heart. This is the starting point for anyone who is ready to start living the best life they can possibly lead. When you quiet your mind and listen, your heart will guide you to the answers that you need.

If you are in the St. Louis area, and would like to learn how to better focus and meditate, I highly recommend checking out this group, SahajaYoga Meditation, they have a great explanation of meditation, followed by a guided meditation. If you regularly attend their classes (which are free!!) they are very helpful in starting one’s journey with meditation.

If you are in another location, you can check out the main website for Sahaja Yoga Meditation to locate groups worldwide. Classes are free everywhere, as the founder of SahajaYoga, Shri Mataji Nirmala Devi says, “Truth cannot be sold, it cannot be purchased”, it is just to be experienced and enjoyed.

Enjoy the truth my friends. Connect with your inner divinity, and live from your heart.

God bless,

– Christine



When I am present in any given moment, I notice everything in that moment.

I notice the sounds around me, and what they are telling me about the positioning of all who are in motion around me.

I notice the subtle shift of knowing vs. curiosity in people’s eyes when I talk to them.

I notice the deliberate placement of someone’s gaze vs the haphazard wandering of a thoughtless stare.

I notice the thought that is forming in a person’s mind behind the facade of their inactive listening.

I notice the collective energy vibes of a room, and who is influencing those vibes the most.

I notice the endless depth behind the quietest people… and their silent acknowledgement of my knowing of their secret brilliance when our eyes meet and briefly pierce each other’s souls.

I notice the awkward dance that rests in the air between two people who can’t quite seem to figure out the connection between them.

I notice the subtle change of attitude that some feel necessary to use to distract others when they sense someone is becoming too close.

I notice the little things that people do and the little things they used to do.

I notice when your soul isn’t into something any more.

I notice both the calm and the erratic levels that people are vibing at, based on the zen of the air around them.

I notice when you enter a room, and when you leave it.

I notice you silently working up the courage to speak words to that person you’re really into… especially if that person is me.

I notice people who are turning on the charm vs. those who are naturally charming.

I notice those who are aware consciously aware of the fifth dimension, and those who will never quite grasp it.

I notice when you have ulterior motives behind the words coming out of your mouth.

I notice when you are lying.

I notice when you are trying to manipulate someone into thinking your idea is their idea.

I notice your level of confidence by combining the total of your words, your actions, and your silence.

I notice the subtlety of almost everything.

I notice things because I’m intuitive, perceptive, and judgmental. I’ve developed an ego of kindness which lends itself to being a people pleaser, and as such, I learned very early on to pay close attention to people, and all they were saying and not saying, so that I could use that knowledge to get what I wanted from them or the situation, all while making them think my interest is because I only have their best interest at heart. This is not to say that I don’t have their best interest at heart many times, however, self preservation is most always the name of the game.

It’s lonely at times… noticing everything about everyone… while mostly just wanting someone to notice me… and that I am not really what I pretend to be. I long for someone that looks at me in amazement of all the things I can clearly see, with a knowing that they will never quite be able to figure me out. Which may sound tiresome to most, but I’ve learned my best matches are the ones who love the randomness of my ever changing mind. To those few… the reward is the essence of my free spirited heart. For inside the layers of my brilliant mind, is a simple, fun loving girl, with a curiosity as fierce as the winds of a hurricane… that just wants to laugh and play, and make the most of this playground that is our world. A girl who wants to live at the highest levels of consciousness, where nothing of this world can be taken for granted, as it all serves a divine purpose for our chosen path of learning in life. Her, who will simply always want to be watching and be reveling in the orchestra of life… everyday that she is alive.

So… would you like to take notice with me?

– Christine


Over the weekend I saw the new film, “I Am Not Your Negro” which is the story of race in modern America as written by James Baldwin with his unfinished novel, Remember This House.

The movie left a number of lasting impressions on me, that I want to share.

First off, the tale of oppression and murder that permeates James Baldwin’s tale, were sadly way to reminiscent of events that are still happening in our communities today. What struck me as even worse, was that in the time of Baldwin’s writings primarily the 50-60’s, there almost seemed to be more hope, and more leadership on the civil rights front of race equality than there is now. As my friend Niki and I discussed this after the movie, we both concurred that it almost seemed like any steps forward were almost assured to lead to lack of further progression down the road, because people think their work is done and then stop leading the fight.

Sadly, the truth is that this fight will never end in our lifetime. The subtle prejudices and racism that has infiltrated the minds of the white American population is not going away any time soon. The inability for the white population to admit its own privilege over every other race, is the cornerstone of the issue, as I see it. Until more people can come to understand the ways that white privilege has created a monstrous class of completely unaware people who are constantly unconsciously asserting their privilege over the well being of other human beings, until we can all recognize this fact and work to change this ill minded belief… then we will be stuck in this viscous and hate filled cycle, which only serves to bring down all of humanity.

In the movie Baldwin stated how whites seemed to be filled with so much hate that it had closed them off to feel any apathy of the heart towards the African American struggle. This line really stuck with me, because it has always been my belief that if we can simply shift back towards heart centered living, then that is how we begin to unite in love to overcome our perception of inequality towards one another. The more that we are able to live from our hearts and have love and compassion for all, the closer we are to solving our problems that result from one group thinking they are above another.

I suppose Baldwin’s line on apathy stuck out to me mostly because it was in that moment that I began to gain a sense of the pure hatred that is actually directed at people of color for no apparent logical reason. I’ve always been on the optimistic side, but as a white woman it was easy for me to be in that place, because I have never been on the side of being hated and oppressed by half of your country for no good reason. Slowly over the past few days, I have attempted to put myself in that place, and I have to say, it has brought me to a much somber more realistic view of the situation that we are facing today. I no longer look at it with optimism that a heart centered revolution is ALL we need. Yes, that is what we need, but we need so much more than that, so much that I can now see why the fight to equality is so overwhelmingly hard for African American people to continue to bear on their own.

This morning I came across this video on Facebook with this poem by Danez Smith. Given my most recent revelation and understanding of the African American’s true struggle, I found this post to be very appropriately timed.

To know that my race has caused a whole separate race so much pain and suffering… because of our own fear and ignorance… is truly heart wrenchingly painful. To make any human being feel that their existence is less for ANY reason is not only wrong but it’s irresponsible towards the fate of humanity.

When I take all of this in, and try to make sense of what this means for me and the lives of those around me… the conclusion that I come to is that the best thing that I can do right here and right now is to continue living from my heart. To continue seeing people as human beings versus a color or a religion. To continue to embrace the idea that we are all one, and what I do to my fellow man, thus I do to myself. The more I lead with that idea in my own life, the more I begin to truly embody the spirit of equality, the more I can stand to be a true representative of hope for a better future for all.

Not only that, but that I also must stand up at every given opportunity and fight the hate and oppression that continues to exist in our world. I must stand up for the betterment of humanity, and fight for equality for all in every situation that I encounter in my life. Together, we must all start to do this. We cannot sit idle and let these injustices continue to happen right before our eyes everyday. For when our fellow human is hurt, when they are made to feel less, when they are made to feel as though God has forgotten them, and this world holds no love in its heart for them… that is the moment hate climbs into our world and takes away all of our hope for humanity.

We can ascend to greatness together… or we will not ascend at all. The choice is ours, and it’s high time we all start to realize that we can only move forward in humanity when we chose to do so as equals.

God bless,

– Christine

Last night I attended a local meeting on Climate Change, put on by local activist groups Indivisible St. Louis and Citizens Climate Lobby, to help lay out a plan for people on the best ways to go about contacting Congress, and also to brainstorm ideas on solutions for Climate Change. Their last meeting that was held in December, which I did not attend, had 6-10 people at it. The meeting last night had well over 100 people in attendance. A lot has changed from December to now, and I suppose a lot more people see that the unless we stand up for our planet, our government will not.

The meeting was extremely informative. It included first a National Geographic Video clip from the an episode of the show Living Dangerously, which followed Actor Bradley Whitford as he set out on a mission to lobby for Climate Change. In the video we were introduced to Jay Buterra, a long time lobbyist of Climate Change who has been on a mission to convert the Republican party to a group of climate change believers, one member of Congress at a time. Buterra has slowly created a Bi-Partisan Caucus on Climate Change. Jay started with the governor of Florida, as it’s slowly sinking state feels the effects of climate change the most right now, and slowly he has gotten 22 other Republican party members to agree to join the group to lobby Congress to pass a bill stating that Climate Change is real. (Which is ludicrous that Republicans are still denying this is real, but our government is slow to acknowledge and adapt new ideas, which is exactly why this group is slowly making history by converting the party one Congress member at a time.)

The clip of the show, was certainly eye opening, however, after watching the video the group had also had arranged for a live Face Time meeting with Jay Buterra where he addressed some of the issues in more depth, and also gave us all great direction on how to effectively influence Congress. Some of the takeaways I got from the meeting include:

  • Fact: Your voice matters! Congress is coming around to admitting that Climate Change is real, however, their biggest excuse is that they do not hear from their constituents about it enough, so it’s easy for them to say people don’t really care about it.
    Resolution:  We all need to be contacting our members of Congress regularly about the issues that we care about. Our voices matter, but we must use them!! One phone call, or one letter, or one tweet, is not going to do anything either. We need to be constant and persistent. Set a reminder each week and repeat your method of contact weekly to enforce the fact that you really care. This is in regards to whatever issue you are taking up with Congress.
  • Fact: You cannot effectively lobby for all the injustices that are happening right now at once. If you try to be involved in every movement, and every protest, you will be spreading yourself to thin and therefore making all of your efforts less effective.
    Resolution: Pick one thing that you are truly passionate about changing, and put all of your effort into that one thing. Educate yourself to the max on it. Know not only your reasons as why you believe it is necessary, but understand the views of the opposition as well. The only way you can effectively speak to those with opposing views in a manner that may change their mind, is to understand where they are coming from first. When you focus on one thing,  you can accomplish much more towards change than if you are splitting your attention between multiple causes and not really doing a great job at any one of them. Pick one thing, and do it well.
  • Fact: You will not change minds with hate, anger, or Facebook rants. That is a fact. These things only serve to bring y our energy down, and therefore bring down the energy of those around you.
    Resolution: Focus on the positive!! In the instance of Climate Change instead of focusing on how terrible the oil industry is, they suggested we focus on the positives of how many jobs updating our country’s energy infrastructure would bring. Right now, our current power grid cannot handle the massive energy that could be generated in America by adding more wind farms, so in order to prepare for clean energy we need to update America’s power grid, which not only creates jobs, but it also creates a safer, less vulnerable, energy grid for America. Focusing on the good things that will come about from the change that you want will go along way to creating actual change in people’s minds.
  • Fact: Your voice does matter! This one was so important I feel like it needs to be said twice. Many people make comments like “Well I would have done something, but I know my state is heavily Conservative/Republican so me doing anything isn’t going to matter anyways.”
    Resolution: DO NOT BECOME DISILLUSIONED AND THINK THAT YOUR VOICE DOES NOT MATTER!!! It does. The minute you think that you can’t make a difference is the minute the other side wins. They want people to feel like this so it suppresses people from even trying. The truth is, we the people, have a lot more power than we can even imagine.

There are so many different ways to go about being involved in a movement. There was a guy who stood up last night to mention that he likes to create puppets, and he is looking for help to create political puppets that he could do skits with to spread the message with. I thought that was so cool! This guy loves puppets, and so he wants to use that to inspire change! It showed me that you can really take whatever innate talents and abilities that you enjoy and apply those things to creating change. The sky is the limit when we exercise our creativity! Who knows, maybe someone who would never care about an issue sees a puppet show one day on climate change, and THAT is the thing that helps them finally understand the issue and want to help make a change.

Last night, for the first time since the election, I felt a sense of hope about our country. Being in a room full of people who were just as upset and passionate as I am about what is happening here, assured me I am far from alone in this fight. The truth is, many people are not happy about what is going on. Many people have not been happy for a long time, but it took a situation like President Trump to make people understand that the only way we can change anything is by actually being involved. That is when the magic happens. When Americans get involved with their politicians and government and remind them who they work for. We have become complacent as a country, where for many of us, getting involved in politics is the last thing we ever wanted to do. That mentality has to change though. We all must stand up together, and fight for our freedoms. We all must make our voices heard.

Find your cause, dive in, and make a difference. Our country, this world, needs you now more than ever!

God bless,

– Christine


In case you missed the message of my last post, we are all slowly starting to realize that we are not actually free. So what does that mean? It means we are the forefront of a revolution. A revolution of consciousness. Man has created a network that was meant to enslave the masses. Man started with good intention, and built a world that created a world which has brought us to this moment. Which was quite far. However, man could only take us so far before his dominant quest to conquer the world turned into what we now see today. A world of chaos and disorder. A country divided. A world that doesn’t know how to love. This is the moment… where the consciousness steps in, and wakes us up, all of us, Finally.

If you are paying attention, and listening to your soul, you feel this. You know that our government is no longer serving the people, we can see this as our President signs orders that directly violate our constitution. You know that when hate, corruption, and greed, drive all of our policies.You know it when they try to take away science and reason. Meditation is no longer just something hippies do, no, it’s something people of intelligence do. Spirituality no longer means that you must answer to a religion, no, it means you are getting in touch with your inner guide. Our understanding of the system of oppression is changing as we are starting to open our eyes and see what is really going on. We are oppressed. WE are not FREE.

However, we do have rights. We have inalienable rights guaranteed by our forefathers, who set out with pure intentions in their heart to make this the land of the free, and home of the brave, because without courage and bravery in the face of the scary and unknown… we will not be free.

This was always part of the plan. The world works on a system of balance. We are at the edge of destruction… but do not fear. The creator, God, the Beauty of the Universe and it’s grand balancing scales, are about to be reset.

We are now consciously aware of the power struggle that is going on at an elite level, as we can see it loud and clear living out right now in our day to day lives of chaos and disunity.

This must change.

This change requires our conscious participation.

This change does not require violence, it requires peace, and calm.

This change requires people to understand their own limitations that have been holding them back in life, and thus depriving this world of their precious gifts and talents.

This change requires us to admit our own faults, and agree to work on them.

This change happens… when we all work on ourselves.

This change happens when we resolve all of our own issues within and return to being spiritual beings capable of radiating light and love.

As we heal ourselves, as we look within and advance our own consciousness, the consciousness of our world, will follow.

This is our path forward. Global conscious awareness is the next phase of man kind. As we usher in the ultimate all knowing beings that reside within each of us… then that is when we achieve peace on Earth.

We are at an incredible time of human life.

The Enlightenment Period.

How. Fucking. Cool.

– Christine



Last night into today is the New Moon in Aquarius. This new moon represents an opening where we can manifest energy to free us from our limitations, free us from chaos, and free our minds from all of the beliefs that we have held that keep us back in life.

Let me ask you, what does the word freedom mean to you?

To me, freedom has always meant that I have the ability to say and do what I want, I can act freely and of my own will. However, I have started to notice, that according that belief… we are not actually free, at all.

It’s amazing to me that I am just now realizing this, when it has been so simple, and right in front of us all this whole time.

True freedom, would be the ability to actually do or say whatever we want, without limitation. Without consequences imposed on us from laws of society. If I wanted to have an abortion, in a land of real freedom, it would be my prerogative to do so. If I wanted to kill a man, in the land of true freedom, I could do so, and only have my own conscious to answer to for it. If I wanted to

In the land of true freedom… laws would not be necessary. Laws dictate what we can and cannot do. That is not freedom.

Yes, we have more free will in America than most countries are afforded, but still, we are not free people. What makes that realization slightly harder to take, is the way our limited freedom has been so idolized. America Land of the Free, Home of the Brave. How could we not be a free people, I mean it’s in our slogan??

I know, some of you may say, well we can’t have pure freedom for everyone, that would be chaos. But would it?

Man is born seeking a balance between right and wrong. It is human nature. We seek to be balanced beings. In our society that balance of right and wrong is actually unjustly thrust upon us by societies laws which is what creates internal chaos, and therefor more outward chaos in our wold. If we truly lived in a world of freedom and had the ability to govern our own decisions, according to our own right from wrong… society would inherently become less chaotic. There would be less rebellion and more unity.

We all have different ideas and different beliefs, and in a world of true freedom, those differences would be celebrated. Looked upon not as someone else being wrong to your right, but rather seen as a different way to look at a situation. More light would be shed on things in a quicker manner if we weren’t so concerned with the insistence that there is only one right way to do things. We would advance much faster as a civilization under this premise.

The illusion of freedom that we have signed off on in America, has created a new bubble here that is far scarier than any housing or economic bubble. Our acceptance of our limited world as freedom has only served to give more power to those who make our laws and govern our land. While we have been blissfully living our lives, they have been busy manufacturing scenarios to scare us into allowing more laws, more restrictions, and more limitations, which only serve to increase their power of us. They have manufactured a world based on our selfish wants and desires which was built keep us entertained and under an illusion that we are happy, that we are free… while we continue to work as their slaves, and line their pockets with our money. This. Is. Not. Freedom.

America was built on the foundation that we are a free and unified nation where every man is afforded the right to pursue life, liberty, and happiness. What we have been given is a nation divided by laws and restrictions imposed by the few, to control the many. We are not free. The sooner we can all realize that, then the sooner we pop this bubble, and take back what is rightfully ours: FREEDOM.

Vive la révolution,

– Christine


I can’t take it anymore. I cannot take the pure idiocracy that is our world right now. Where do I even start. With our President?? No, that’s too easy, I’ll save that for the end, which is where it belongs, because as you will see he is not our problem, he is the product of our problem. Our problem?? People. Not. Being. Accountable. For. Their. Own. Issues!!!! No, that’s that not true either, that is also a product of our real problem. The real problem is the puppet masters that are controlling and manipulating our thoughts, our behaviors, our actions, and ultimately our minds. The Cabal. If you have never heard this phrase or have no inkling of what it is let me explain:

“From all available evidence it’s clear that the most compelling hypothesis explaining the interconnected crimes, lies, and human slaughter occurring in our modern world is that an international cabal took control of the United States in the early part of the twentieth century and is now methodically destroying American and world institutions and values. The main goal of the cabal has been to consolidate political, economic, and social power in its hands while obliterating the minds of the masses to establish a militaristic, imperialistic dictatorship.” – 

Before you laugh me off as a conspiracy theorist, I need you to stop, and fucking listen. Hell, do some research of your own, just please, USE YOUR BRAIN.

This is not a joke. This is very real, very well documented, and now BLATANTLY obvious through the effects that we are seeing in our country and throughout the world.

It does not matter who our president is, the Cabal is in charge. The richest of the rich, so elite they have rewrote history to erase their names and any traces of their involvement in humanity. They do not want to be known. To be known, to be documented, means that their heinous manipulation of mankind could become susceptible to almost being believable. No, they much prefer to lurk in the shadows, pulling the strings, manipulating the population, feeding us lies verified as truth, while poisoning our water, and slowly turning our brains to mush.

The reason that so many in my generation are failing to find love is because we have all become such ego driven maniacs, that the process of actually finding the humanity within us that is required for love is almost impossible. This is not our fault either, we are living in the cabal created reality which was shaped in specific way to keep us locked up by our own insecurities,  shortcomings, and fears! Our society is set up to keep us trapped in the insanity of our own mind!! It is manufactured insanity that we have come to accept as normal.

On top of that, they have managed to tap into the power of the ego on a massive scale. When I say that, I mean they have perfected playing to our selfish wants, desires, addictions, and even hatred in a way that keeps people so trapped in their own minds. Making people believe that money, fame, drugs, and alcohol are the best prizes in life, when in reality those are the exact things that strip us of the best joys in life.

Trump? Trump is a con man who figured out the Cabal’s con, and then used it for his own gain. I could almost respect him in that fact. Almost. However, any person which is THAT driven by their own inadequacies, insecurities, and ultimately ignorance, has no righteous path in life, not even by accident. Now in office, an office he himself knows he is 100% not interested in holding, he is simply handing the reigns directly over to the cabal. Not that any president has ever truly represented the people anyways, but most at least had the dignity to preserve our basic human rights, and some even did their best to add to them. Not Trump. He does not care about anyone but himself, and because of that the next four years are going to be a real shit show for humanity.


  1. Take a look at your own life. Focus within. Admit your own issues, admit your own weaknesses, (it’s okay, everyone has them!) and then work on them. Make yourself a better person. That is almost all we can do in this otherwise chaotic world. When you heal yourself, you are ultimately healing the world. As you are able to better listen to your soul, then you will be better equipped to find your true calling and follow your destiny, and THAT is what this world needs. More people doing what they were put on this planet to do.
  2. Stop poisoning your body. Stop eating processed foods that contain zero nutrition. Stop drinking soda like its water. It’s not, its fucking poison. Water is our lifeblood. Drink it. A lot. 
    The power in plants is being largely repressed by pharmaceutical companies (the cabal), but PLANTS ARE POWER. They can heal almost every major disease. Nourish your body, it is the only one you have, and your brain needs nourishment in order to think it’s way through your issues!!
  4. Do not believe things simply because you are told to do so. Do your own research. Meditate, ask the universe for answers, ALL THE KNOWLEDGE OF THE WORLD IS WITHIN YOU. If you don’t believe me, then you don’t believe in yourself, and that’s the real problem here, so go back to number one please.
  5. Find love. Love for yourself. Love for your fellow man. Love for all. They can do a lot of things, feed us a lot of lies, but they cannot take away our innate want to give and receive love. That is a fundamental human right, and one that I believe holds the key to our way out of all this mess.

So go on… wake the fuck up already. Work on yourself. Find your calling. Find your voice. Let’s take our goddamn country back from the power hungry lunatics who think they can turn our brains into mush and take our freedom without us noticing!!!


– Christine