Posts Tagged ‘follow your heart

The mind is a fascinating place. It can create a world and a life that is heaven on earth, just as quickly as it can trap you in the depths of its mental despair. The differentiator? I’m not sure anyone is really sure. The value we place on our own sanity perhaps? The strength of our spirit to overcome the mind? Genetics? All of the above?

Coming from a family with deep mental health issues, I am no stranger to the dark side of the mind. I have a sister that lost her mind, I suspect, to due guilt and grief after she was involved in a tragic accident that resulted in the death of her best friend. As far as doctors can diagnose, they have labeled her as schizophrenic, but I’m not totally sold on that. My sister was incredibly smart, and sharp minded, and after the accident, she just seemed to check out of life. She couldn’t face her pain, and the guilt that she felt. Slowly, over the years, I believe those emotions have manifested as all kinds of mental ghosts in her mind that are always haunting her.

When you’re in the middle of it, and the terrible pain around you seems so real, how does one overcome those demons?

That is a question I have spent the past few years trying to find the answer to. My verdict? Love conquers all.

Throughout my life, I too have wrestled with my own emotional/mental health demons.

Three years ago I started doing stand up comedy. I was not great by any means, but my raw vulnerability had a way of connecting with the crowd that was I think just very real to people. It was exhilarating, and when I went on stage it was a rush like I had never felt before.

Somewhere around the end of my first year of doing stand up… I lost my ability to be vulnerable. I had gotten into a relationship, and slowly, I lost my confidence and started becoming very insecure about everything.

At the time, I knew something was going on. I knew I was losing myself, but I had no idea why or how to stop it. Sure enough, as the months went on, I subtlety became someone different. Someone that was not quite the Christine that I once was. I looked the same. To the unknowing person, I probably seemed the same, but to those who loved me… to the man I was in love with… I wasn’t the same person anymore… I was a slightly less version of the me that we both knew was possible. A slightly dimmed down version of my amazing self.

At a certain point I left the relationship, because I was so lost. What I knew, but couldn’t quite put into words, was that I wasn’t okay being me any more. I wasn’t comfortable opening up and being real with people. When this all started, it was about three months into my new relationship. Right about the time when one would typically start to open up on a deeper level. Except I had never shared my depths with anyone before. I had never even really looked deep at my depths myself. Perhaps because subconsciously, I knew the demons that lived there… and I was terrified of them.

Instead of facing those demons head on though… I retreated in fear. My best self, my mind, decided it would rather be less, than to have to share my shame with the person I loved the most. My mind, my emotions, told me that he couldn’t possibly love me if he knew the real me, and so without even realizing it… I submitted to those thoughts and locked my best self away for “safe keeping”.

My soul, on the other hand, was not content with this lesser version of me. My soul could not sleep, could not eat, could not function at the thought of living the rest of my life in this place of fear. My soul is what pushed me forward and compelled me to fight the walls of the mental prison which were keeping my beautiful self locked down.

If you have been following my blog for awhile, you might be familiar with some of the demons that I am speaking of. Alcohol abuse, sexual abuse, and one I haven’t quite figured out just yet, but that I’m working on, which is a highly repressed sexuality. The side effects of all of these equaled low self worth, low self esteem, depression, anxiety, insecurity, distorted thinking, grandiose fears, and overall inability to cope with life. Before I confronted and dealt with the sexual abuse, and my repressed sexuality, I was a ticking time bomb of mental anguish. I had successfully masked my pain with drugs and alcohol for most of my adult life, but when I got into a real relationship, and my true self was mirrored back to me (as real love tends to do) there was no hiding from it any more. My soul saw what my mind had been hiding. The broken pieces of me that I always tried to pretend weren’t really there were front and center for my soul to see. At first this was quite frightening. I was frozen a bit in fear.

The hardest part of all of this was that what little self love I had built up for myself throughout the years, was suddenly completely gone. I was so angry with myself. I hated who I was. I hated that I wasn’t strong enough to not let this situation get so out of control. I hated that I had seemingly lost not only myself, but also this person that I loved so much, the first person that ever worked his way into the true depths of my soul. As a perfectionist, the worst thing that could happen was happening. My imperfect self was ruining my chance at a happy life. These were the thoughts my mind convinced me were real.

Slowly, what my soul began to see was that this was my purpose in life. These were the traumas I was given to overcome. Slowly, I stopped being so afraid of these demons, and I began to go to work on myself.

Over the past two years, I have worked my way through the world of jilted emotions and false realities that my mind had created which swallowed up my best self. It was not pretty, it was not easy, it required professional help, a new level of spiritual understanding, and a lot of asking the Universe to please help me figure this thing out, and then learning how to listen and look for the signs that the divine universe was sending.

During the past few years, I knew my stand up wasn’t what it once was. I wasn’t trying. I didn’t have the energy to be funny when all I felt inside was dark. I didn’t put in the effort that it needed, and every time I went up I didn’t get the same rush that I once did.

However, last night I sat down and I started writing. I wrote a new five minutes on my messed up mind. As I was writing, I noticed that I wasn’t holding back. I wasn’t afraid to address the crazy, I was raw, I was real, I was vulnerable. I wasn’t afraid any more. I had conquered my fears, and was finally in a place so good that I could look back and laugh at my crazy fucked up thoughts, rather than cry about them. When I finished writing, I sat there in an overwhelming state of peace and gratefulness; much like Andy Dufrane… I felt like I had tunneled my way through 500 yards of shit, but came out clean on the other side.

I performed my new five at an open mic, and for the first time in a long time… I felt that incredible rush that I used to get. For the first time in a long time… I felt like my best self.

The mind is so incredibly powerful. Whether you believe you can, or you can’t, you are right. Fear is also very powerful. Stronger than fear though, is love. The hope for love is what kept me going the past few years. The knowing that I could never have love until I conquered my fears and faced my depths, is what pushed me forward every day. Because you see, the man that I was dating… I loved him more than I have ever loved any other soul. It was the pure love that I had for him that made me able to see my depths so clearly. Any time my mind tried to make me forget about working on myself, and tried to tell me how everyone else was the problem, not me; that man would come to my mind, my love, and I’d remember the truth, I’d remember my lost self. I’d dig deeper, and I’d continue forging forward through all of the pain. Love was the lighthouse that saved me during the storm.

Life is a constant balance between Love and Fear; heart and mind. There is no easy button to overcoming the pain and the trauma that we each have to go through, that is a battle we each have to figure out for ourselves. The mental strength that is required to do that though… is only found when decide to chose the heart over the mind. Love truly does conquer all.

My advice to anyone going through their pain, and hurt, and suffering right now?

Follow your heart. Find your love. Face your fears. Be your best self. Every. Single. Day.

No matter how long you have to fight for it, keep going. You are worth it.

Much love and light to you all,

– Christine





We all have issues and fears in our lives that stem from the events of our childhood. That is the condition of life. Unlearning the unknown fears of our pasts in order to stop the cycle of pain that they keep us in. That is true growth in life. I have talked openly before about having a fear of intimacy, which is a combination of the fear of abandonment and the fear of rejection. This deep seeded fear in my life stems from the events of my childhood.

My parents divorced when I was five years old, and my fears of abandonment, I believe, stem from the events surrounding my parents divorce. While both of my parents went above and beyond to be the best parents that they could be, nothing they could have done could stop the fact that I subconsciously felt abandoned by them in some way.

My fear of rejection stems from the sexual abuse that I went through, where I was constantly subjected to an abuser who rejected me publicly, but preyed on me privately. That not only created a constant feeling of being of rejected, but it also created a deep rooted feeling of worthlessness within me that, to this day, I find very hard to shake off at times.

While I have acknowledged these issues, their complications, and how they have shaped my life, I realized yesterday that I still have a lot of pain from these things that I have not yet fully embraced. You see, we are beings that are wired to run from painful situations, and to adapt in ways that keep us from ever really feeling our pain. However, those adaptions eventually start to manifest specific lessons in our life which are meant to bring us to the point where we can finally admit that the adapted version of ourselves, is not as great as the true version of ourselves, and bring us to the place where we are ready and willing to face the pain of our pasts once and for all. Another great gift of life, we are continuously being given opportunities to improve to be our best selves. HOWEVER, many times those lessons require truly diving into and FEELING our deep seeded childhood pains, and only through this process can we emerge from our cocoons to be the bright butterflies that we are.

In figuring myself out lately, I have noticed that I very much have anger and control issues. It was in trying to figure out the anger side that I brought myself to the point of realization that it was perhaps fueled by childhood pain. After continuing to think it through, it became increasingly obvious to me that I still have a lot of pain that has yet to be physically felt and released. So yesterday I sat, and for a minute I concentrated on that pit in the bottom of my stomach that comes up when I begin to think about certain parts of my childhood, the painful parts. I focused on that pain, and as it became heavier and heavier, I started to cry. Not just a weeping cry, no, as I continued to forge into the pain of my soul, I started bawling a river of tears. It was painful. Gut wrenchingly painful.

I thought about my parents and how mad I was at them for “abandoning” our family. I have never really acknowledged it to myself, but last night in my pain, I found myself so incredibly angry and in sort of this child like “Why would you do this to me??” fit of rage and pain. I continued to cry, and breathe, and sit in the pain for as long as my easily distracted mind could handle. When I started to get side tracked with other thoughts, I pushed myself back in the pain, since it was so readily available to me yesterday (due to the current planetary alignments). As I continued to sit there, I began to really understand some of the pain that I had.

I began to understand that I felt so sad and alone because I felt like no one really knew me.  When I really dug into why I felt as though no one really knew me, I began to realize it was because I felt that my mom never really knew me. I saw that my anger stemmed out of my lack of a relationship with my mother, because I felt as though I couldn’t open up to her as a child. My innate reaction as a child was to always pretend everything was fine, and to never talk about my feelings… because deep down, what I was feeling was abandoned.

What I later realized is that what triggered this avalanche of pain and feeling was actually Mother’s Day. I had a wonderful day with my mom on Mother’s Day. I actually had something I wasn’t sure if I was going to tell her or not, but as the day went on, I felt more and more at ease, and so I eventually told her. She did her mom thing, and was able to break through the wall that I always keep up that everything is okay, and she got to my truth. So what I finally realized yesterday as I worked my way through all of this pain, is that my mother has always been there for me. She has done so much for me, all in the name of being a loving and supportive mother. She was always there, she never abandoned me. My feeling of abandonment was created by my own mind as a child when for whatever rhyme or reason I decided that my mother was no longer my ally, or my confidant, or my rock, and I began to shut her out of my life. I am the one who created my own sense of abandonment by isolating my true self from my mom.

As I came to that moment of realization, that I had created this strained relationship with my mother all on my own, the phrase “I chose this life” began to set in with me.

With all of my study into astrology and my soul’s purpose and mission in this lifetime, I have come to a great understanding, which is that my soul chose this exact journey for me to learn everything I needed to learn while I am on earth. The experiences that I have grown from, experienced pain from, and found joy in, were all put in my path to further my soul’s journey. I have come to understand that I truly did chose this life path for myself. So when I felt those words come up, “I chose this life”, I just continued to repeat those words out loud, to really let that sink into my soul.

Here I am writing this the next day, and I just had the realization that this whole experience is quite literally me uncovering one of the greatest masks of my ego. It is me  coming to an understanding of how the story of what I told myself as a child vs the reality of what was actually happening, shaped my misguided belief system that kept me from enjoying the pure love and light that both of my parents have always had for me, and in turn kept me stuck in my own self created world of pain and hurt. A pain that was so deep that rather than feel it, and learn from it, I have spent many years running from it, pretending I was okay, which only served to further the cycle of pain.

Funny thing pain is like that. When we tell ourselves that we are okay, and that we are fine, when we are in fact in pain, we then are essentially creating a place for that pain to live. We give that pain life. Our life thus attracts more pain, because that is the vibe that we are sending out into the world. We drag out our own pain when we don’t face it head on. However, when we do embrace it, feel it, let it hurt, and let it out… then we learn our truth behind that pain, and then we begin to understand it. Once we understand it, we can learn from it… and finally move on and be done with that it!

The only way out is through.

There are no shortcuts in life growth.

We all must learn to stop being afraid of pain.

We should welcome it with open arms.

Sit with your pain.

FEEL it.

Let it hurt.

Let it make you mad.



Be sad.

Then understand what exactly it is that is making you sad.

Once you get deep into that pain, it becomes easier to see what it is that is truly the problem.

Continue asking yourself why, until you have your answer.

It will come.

“As I stand in a puddle of tears, I give thanks; for without pain, I would not grow.” – @j.ironword

Give thanks. You are exactly where you chose to be on this journey of life.

You chose this life.

The sooner we all understand that we are not victims of our circumstances, but rather the creators of our destiny; the sooner we can flip that switch and realize our amazing power to achieve anything we desire in this world comes through our ability to face our own pain and grow our way through it.

Sending so much light and love to you all this week. There is a lot of active energy going on in the world right now, and I hope that you all take that extra energy and use it to confront some of your own pain… and that through that you find great healing, so you are able to better shine your light. Our world needs your light right now. We need to stop furthering the pain. It is time.

❤ Christine

I am at a loss today for what to even say today.

Our world is so very clearly messed up.

Corporate greed is annihilating basic human rights.

We have a government dead set on taking us into WWIII.

Billionaires are investing in luxury bunkers at rapid rates.

Are we on the edge of the end? Are we one tip of the scale from the end of the world?

I typically like to keep an optimistic attitude and not pay attention to the news cycles, however, I feel like that has been incredibly hard the past few days.

We have let the power hungry take the reigns to our country, to our lives, and run wild with it.

Now we are somehow at a point where convincing our own people that these power hungry monsters don’t have their best interests at heart is a real thing.

People who have blindly accepted lies as truth their entire lives, so they have no basis for real truth within their lives.

They are easily manipulated, and can’t see that they are losing everything in their life because of their blind trust in the ultimate con men.

Our planet is dying, and yet we are arguing over who owns what part of it. The sad part is, soon there will be nothing of value left to even fight over.

We are very much at a time of great awakening.

This I know, and I also know that we are simply being made more aware of the evils in our world right now, but that doesn’t mean there actually is more. In fact, I would care to argue that everyday more and more people are understanding that what we need is a shift into heart centered living, and they are doing just that.

Keep believing. Keep focusing within yourself, and working to better your own life. That is what we all must focus on, and within that, the changes will come.

Most importantly, keep being kind. Show compassion to all those in your life, including yourself. It is already a cruel world, we do not need more harshness on top of it all.

Have patience, for the night may now appear very dark, but the morning light is never far away.

Peace and love to you all,

– Christine


I know I’m getting pretty behind on my daily writing, however, I’ve been stuck in this weird limbo feeling for the past two weeks as I’ve been waiting to hear back on a situation. I don’t want to talk about it until I know it’s really happening, so because I don’t want to talk about it, I’ve basically not been wanting to really talk about anything. That’s a pretty lame excuse for not writing though, so really I just need to stop letting myself get dissuaded by excuses.

As I have mentioned, I am currently taking classes in Kabbalah which help me better understand the mind and the ego. It’s been extremely transformative for me in terms of understanding my own responsibility in all of my reactions to things in life.

More than that, Kabbalah has taught me a deeper understanding for the universe and the fundamental explanation of why we are in the energetic climate that we are currently experiencing, and what I can do personally in order to better humanity.

Check out this week’s post from Kabbalah Student, Billy Phillips. The video at the end absolutely blew my mind, because I not only understood and believed it to be true, but I felt it was true in my soul. The purpose of all of creation and how we achieve utopia and peace on earth is explained in the video. Which to think that we are in the moment in time where this information is now being disseminated to the masses and a global awakening IS in fact happening… is mind blowingly awesome.

The energy of the world right now is slowly shifting towards realization that we are all one, and what we do to another, we do to ourselves. As we become aware of this, it is my belief that we will rapidly see our world shift towards a place centered in love and peace. Love for all our fellow man kind, just as we love ourselves. Those in positions of power who have been driven by greed and corruption for so long will even be converted to love. The power structure currently in place IS coming down. Trust in that, and know that incredible, amazing, things are starting to happen in our world. We are alive during the conscious awakening of the world, and if we focus on our own awakening and learning during this time we will reap incredible benefits and rewards almost immediately within our lives.

Such an incredible time to be alive.

Sit on that information for a minute and then think about what you are doing to discover and unleash your own gifts to the world right now. Is your path rooted in love? Love of self, and love for your fellow man? That is what your aim should be. To live in love, by following the pull of your heart. Heart centered living. This is the only path forward to true happiness in life.

Not sure how you do this? Start by tuning into your heart. Meditate. Quiet your mind. Tune into your heart. This is the starting point for anyone who is ready to start living the best life they can possibly lead. When you quiet your mind and listen, your heart will guide you to the answers that you need.

If you are in the St. Louis area, and would like to learn how to better focus and meditate, I highly recommend checking out this group, SahajaYoga Meditation, they have a great explanation of meditation, followed by a guided meditation. If you regularly attend their classes (which are free!!) they are very helpful in starting one’s journey with meditation.

If you are in another location, you can check out the main website for Sahaja Yoga Meditation to locate groups worldwide. Classes are free everywhere, as the founder of SahajaYoga, Shri Mataji Nirmala Devi says, “Truth cannot be sold, it cannot be purchased”, it is just to be experienced and enjoyed.

Enjoy the truth my friends. Connect with your inner divinity, and live from your heart.

God bless,

– Christine


Over the weekend I saw the new film, “I Am Not Your Negro” which is the story of race in modern America as written by James Baldwin with his unfinished novel, Remember This House.

The movie left a number of lasting impressions on me, that I want to share.

First off, the tale of oppression and murder that permeates James Baldwin’s tale, were sadly way to reminiscent of events that are still happening in our communities today. What struck me as even worse, was that in the time of Baldwin’s writings primarily the 50-60’s, there almost seemed to be more hope, and more leadership on the civil rights front of race equality than there is now. As my friend Niki and I discussed this after the movie, we both concurred that it almost seemed like any steps forward were almost assured to lead to lack of further progression down the road, because people think their work is done and then stop leading the fight.

Sadly, the truth is that this fight will never end in our lifetime. The subtle prejudices and racism that has infiltrated the minds of the white American population is not going away any time soon. The inability for the white population to admit its own privilege over every other race, is the cornerstone of the issue, as I see it. Until more people can come to understand the ways that white privilege has created a monstrous class of completely unaware people who are constantly unconsciously asserting their privilege over the well being of other human beings, until we can all recognize this fact and work to change this ill minded belief… then we will be stuck in this viscous and hate filled cycle, which only serves to bring down all of humanity.

In the movie Baldwin stated how whites seemed to be filled with so much hate that it had closed them off to feel any apathy of the heart towards the African American struggle. This line really stuck with me, because it has always been my belief that if we can simply shift back towards heart centered living, then that is how we begin to unite in love to overcome our perception of inequality towards one another. The more that we are able to live from our hearts and have love and compassion for all, the closer we are to solving our problems that result from one group thinking they are above another.

I suppose Baldwin’s line on apathy stuck out to me mostly because it was in that moment that I began to gain a sense of the pure hatred that is actually directed at people of color for no apparent logical reason. I’ve always been on the optimistic side, but as a white woman it was easy for me to be in that place, because I have never been on the side of being hated and oppressed by half of your country for no good reason. Slowly over the past few days, I have attempted to put myself in that place, and I have to say, it has brought me to a much somber more realistic view of the situation that we are facing today. I no longer look at it with optimism that a heart centered revolution is ALL we need. Yes, that is what we need, but we need so much more than that, so much that I can now see why the fight to equality is so overwhelmingly hard for African American people to continue to bear on their own.

This morning I came across this video on Facebook with this poem by Danez Smith. Given my most recent revelation and understanding of the African American’s true struggle, I found this post to be very appropriately timed.

To know that my race has caused a whole separate race so much pain and suffering… because of our own fear and ignorance… is truly heart wrenchingly painful. To make any human being feel that their existence is less for ANY reason is not only wrong but it’s irresponsible towards the fate of humanity.

When I take all of this in, and try to make sense of what this means for me and the lives of those around me… the conclusion that I come to is that the best thing that I can do right here and right now is to continue living from my heart. To continue seeing people as human beings versus a color or a religion. To continue to embrace the idea that we are all one, and what I do to my fellow man, thus I do to myself. The more I lead with that idea in my own life, the more I begin to truly embody the spirit of equality, the more I can stand to be a true representative of hope for a better future for all.

Not only that, but that I also must stand up at every given opportunity and fight the hate and oppression that continues to exist in our world. I must stand up for the betterment of humanity, and fight for equality for all in every situation that I encounter in my life. Together, we must all start to do this. We cannot sit idle and let these injustices continue to happen right before our eyes everyday. For when our fellow human is hurt, when they are made to feel less, when they are made to feel as though God has forgotten them, and this world holds no love in its heart for them… that is the moment hate climbs into our world and takes away all of our hope for humanity.

We can ascend to greatness together… or we will not ascend at all. The choice is ours, and it’s high time we all start to realize that we can only move forward in humanity when we chose to do so as equals.

God bless,

– Christine

Last night into today is the New Moon in Aquarius. This new moon represents an opening where we can manifest energy to free us from our limitations, free us from chaos, and free our minds from all of the beliefs that we have held that keep us back in life.

Let me ask you, what does the word freedom mean to you?

To me, freedom has always meant that I have the ability to say and do what I want, I can act freely and of my own will. However, I have started to notice, that according that belief… we are not actually free, at all.

It’s amazing to me that I am just now realizing this, when it has been so simple, and right in front of us all this whole time.

True freedom, would be the ability to actually do or say whatever we want, without limitation. Without consequences imposed on us from laws of society. If I wanted to have an abortion, in a land of real freedom, it would be my prerogative to do so. If I wanted to kill a man, in the land of true freedom, I could do so, and only have my own conscious to answer to for it. If I wanted to

In the land of true freedom… laws would not be necessary. Laws dictate what we can and cannot do. That is not freedom.

Yes, we have more free will in America than most countries are afforded, but still, we are not free people. What makes that realization slightly harder to take, is the way our limited freedom has been so idolized. America Land of the Free, Home of the Brave. How could we not be a free people, I mean it’s in our slogan??

I know, some of you may say, well we can’t have pure freedom for everyone, that would be chaos. But would it?

Man is born seeking a balance between right and wrong. It is human nature. We seek to be balanced beings. In our society that balance of right and wrong is actually unjustly thrust upon us by societies laws which is what creates internal chaos, and therefor more outward chaos in our wold. If we truly lived in a world of freedom and had the ability to govern our own decisions, according to our own right from wrong… society would inherently become less chaotic. There would be less rebellion and more unity.

We all have different ideas and different beliefs, and in a world of true freedom, those differences would be celebrated. Looked upon not as someone else being wrong to your right, but rather seen as a different way to look at a situation. More light would be shed on things in a quicker manner if we weren’t so concerned with the insistence that there is only one right way to do things. We would advance much faster as a civilization under this premise.

The illusion of freedom that we have signed off on in America, has created a new bubble here that is far scarier than any housing or economic bubble. Our acceptance of our limited world as freedom has only served to give more power to those who make our laws and govern our land. While we have been blissfully living our lives, they have been busy manufacturing scenarios to scare us into allowing more laws, more restrictions, and more limitations, which only serve to increase their power of us. They have manufactured a world based on our selfish wants and desires which was built keep us entertained and under an illusion that we are happy, that we are free… while we continue to work as their slaves, and line their pockets with our money. This. Is. Not. Freedom.

America was built on the foundation that we are a free and unified nation where every man is afforded the right to pursue life, liberty, and happiness. What we have been given is a nation divided by laws and restrictions imposed by the few, to control the many. We are not free. The sooner we can all realize that, then the sooner we pop this bubble, and take back what is rightfully ours: FREEDOM.

Vive la révolution,

– Christine


Today I wanted to just quickly share a thought that I have about goosebumps or chills. I have noticed over the past few years that any time I am thinking about an idea, or speaking with someone, or listening to something that truly speaks to my soul, I get goosebumps. The other day I was having lunch with a new friend, and as she was speaking I got goosebumps, because the things she was telling me were not only things that I have been through but things that I have learned a lot about overcoming. In that moment I knew it was serendipitous that we had recently became closer as the things that I had learned were going to be able to immediately help her find direction that she was looking for.

My friend/mentor Julie Mues, calls moments like these little God Winks. Whatever you want to call them, those moments have come to be one of my most favorite things in life. They let me know I am onto something good. Those moments where the Universe is just reassuring you that you are on the right path and headed towards the right things in your life. I can even be listening to a song and singing along and as I get to a positive uplifting verse I’ll get chills, because the repetition of that positive message speaks to my truest desires in life.

So I want to urge you to pay attention to those moments in your life. Maybe you don’t get chills, but you get that feeling of utter clarity that you are on the right track. The more  you listen to those moments, the more you will be able to find your true path on this crazy journey we call life. Sometimes you might have an idea that seems kind of crazy or requires a big risk… but you get it with chills and just a knowing behind it that it is what you are supposed to do. Listening to those moments and following your heart are the moments that can make or break us. No true reward is ever gained without taking a risk or making a leap of faith, but if you trust yourself, and know that no matter the risk that you can make it work, then you will succeed!! Believing is Achieving!!

Dream big my babies, its a beautiful world of endless possibilities if you only believe!!

– Christine