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News of the Jason Stockley verdict has just dropped here in St. Louis. Another instance of a rogue cop shooting a most likely unarmed black man. (A gun was planted on the victim, a gun which only contained the DNA of the cop, and not the mans.) This cop was not only carrying his own personal AK-47, but was also heard on camera saying “gonna kill this motherfucker.” These are the facts, yet still, this morning, St. Louis Judge Timothy Wilson announced that he did not have enough evidence to conclude there was any wrong doing. As news of the verdict here spreads, people on both sides are angry and on edge.

As a white woman… I want to go on record to my other fellow white St. Louisans. I know you don’t want to see our city in distress, and you don’t want to see protests and riots erupting all over town, for fear of how they are going to impact the traffic as you travel to the Balloon Glow, or the U2 Concert, or Ed Sheeran. I know that is what so many of you are currently upset about. However, I have news for you, the distress and disrupt that our city is in for, is nothing compared to the distress and pain that the people of color are currently feeling in our community. They are hurt, angry, and currently feeling a lot like they don’t matter, because cops are killing them and getting away with it at an alarming rate in our city. On top of that, they can feel the indifference of the white community to their injustice. They know all you are concerned about is your peaceful bubble and it not being disturbed. THAT’S the problem. POC do not have a peaceful bubble to live in. They do not have the privilege of not caring or being indifferent to these situations any more because members of their community are being shot and killed, unlawfully, by police who are walking away free and clear.

Imagine this same scenario happening in West County to an affluent white kid. There would be plenty of uproar to hearing that a cop pulled out his own personal AK-47, which was illegal for him to even have on him, and maliciously mutter, “gonna kill this motherfucker”, and then that cop is acquitted of all wrong doing. I don’t think any of us could say that we don’t think the outcome of the situation would be slightly different had this happened to a white man vs. a black man.

St. Louis has a deeply entrenched racial divide. There is no denying that. What that presents us with though, is also the opportunity to bridge the racial divide not just for our city, but as an example to the entire nation. This weekend we will be in the national spot light. Imagine if the message coming out of our city was not one of violent protests and riots, but instead one of our whole community coming together in unity and solidarity against the System. The systems of our government which perpetrate these gross missteps of justices are the real enemy. That fact should be concerning to all of us who value our freedom. Our government loves the racial divide. They love keeping us distracted, pitted against one another, and angry at the wrong things. We are smarter than that though. We can all see that today the system has failed all of us. So it is up to us ALL to take a stand against this injustice. If we truly want to restore peace to our city, we must do so together. Standing up for what is right, together.

So, to my fellow St. Louis citizens who are currently turning in your chairs with angst about how these protests and riots are going to disrupt your weekend plans… I think you need to take a closer look at this situation. I think you need to really understand how your rights have been violated today as well. I think you need to pull out your sharpies, and your construction board and make your own signs, and join all the men and women downtown and around our city today in taking a stand. In the least, we need to recognize that this issues is impacting and affecting all of us, and that it is going to take participation from all of us in order to make a difference. We can only create a real change when we all go at it together. This is not a problem for the black community, this is a problem for the St. Louis community. Remember that.

God Bless St. Louis, stay safe.

– Christine

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This week I want to talk about something very important. Which is the perfection that is Beyoncé’s Lemonade Film. The film mind you! Yes, the album is great, but the film is where it’s at, trust me. The visuals are stunning, but it is Beyoncé’s words and guidance through the journey of her emotions of betrayal and eventual rebirth that makes Lemonade… that is the true gold. If you haven’t seen it, I can’t really explain it, but I will try. Lemonade is basically life itself. Explained on the realest of levels with the utmost wisdom and beauty and grace because Beyoncé is in fact God’s perfect creation. (Spoiler alert, we all are! Aww, gee, thanks God!) She is very fittingly a true Queen of this earthly world. This film/album is an epic display of her talents, her mind, her intuition, her reflections, revelations, and ultimate discovery of her own power and of the power of true, deep, soul connecting love… and then what it is like to be betrayed by that love… while still maintaining full composure, balance, and control, in her own life. Not only by maintaining, but by going on to pour her life and her soul into her work which gave us the absolute perfect explanation of real love, feminism, and true life that is Lemonade. That is Lemonade at a high level.

On a more direct level, it also gives us a look at Jay Z’ s supposed infidelity, which Beyoncé directly calls out in the song “Sorry” with the line “Better call Becky with the Good Hair”, referring to Jay’s apparent penchant for white women. Which, while Beyoncé is in fact Mother Earth Immaculate incarnate, there is one thing she can never be… and that is white. Sorry (I ain’t sorry)

“If it is what you truly want… I can wear her skin over mine… her hair over mine… her hands as gloves… Her teeth as confetti… Her Scalp a cap. Her sternum my bedazzled cane. We could pose for a photograph… all three of us… immortalized… you and your perfect girl.”

Here, Beyoncé takes us on her thought process as she realizes this and offers a compromise to Jay, gritting through her teeth towards the end as clearly the only way she would only ever actually allow Jay Z to have another woman is over that woman’s dead body which Beyoncé would then wear as a bedazzled skin suit.

WHICH, did any of you happen to see Beyonce’s Met Gala Dress last week??????


If that’s not a bedazzled skin suit, I don’t know what is. Not to mention her hair is looking awfully good there. She is clearly messing with all of us. Which only makes me wonder, since Jay Z did not attend the Met Gala with Beyoncé… did he ever get that photograph??

Artistry and theatrics aside, I do have a thought on this predicament that Beyoncé has found herself in, and why it may not be entirely Jay Z’s fault if he does in fact have a thing for white women.

As a white woman myself, who has had a natural affinity for black boys for as far back as Kindergarten, I have a theory that interracial attraction is not only natural, but I believe it is actually one of the keys to progressing our civilization forward. Hear me out. For the longest time, I was against having children for the simple fact that I don’t particularly appreciate the genetic line that I come from. There is a long history of mental illness in my mom’s family, and even though I feel like I personally got enough of my dad’s rationale, I didn’t have a lot of faith that a child of mine would be so lucky. That was, until I read an article about mixed children, and how because they are bred from parents of such different genetic backgrounds, they are a stronger breed both mentally and physically. It’s the opposite of in-breeding basically. Which, I think we can all admit how beautiful mixed people are, and the research shows that mixed children consistently test higher than non-mixed children, not only in academics but in emotional intelligence tests as well. I think it should also be noted that a mixed society would be an extremely less racist society… for obvious reasons. Now, not that it excuses Jay Z’s lust for another woman, but this theory does explain how he can be married to the queen of life that is Beyoncé… and yet still inexplicably want a “Becky with the Good hair”.

The film then shifts more towards feminism and the power of women, as perhaps we see Beyoncé realizing this underlying natural attraction, and the implications of what this means for the black woman who would presumably then be destined to be with the white male. The same populous that has been predominantly responsible for slavery, not to mention decades of black oppression, and whom currently makes up the majority of Donald Trump’s supporters. Not exactly the most open-minded group to end up with.

However, as the film comes to a close, Beyoncé includes this quote from Hattie Mae White:

“I had my ups and downs, but I always find the inner strength to cool myself off. I was served lemons, but I made lemonade.”

This quote very eloquently points out how women have been finding a way to thrive in any situation they are handed in life for as long as time. So I have to concur that if Beyoncé did find herself wondering down this thought path, perhaps feeling some anger at her proposed genetic destiny… she ultimately knew it would be okay… as there is always lemonade to be made from any situation.

Bottom line: This is all just me thinking out loud, trying to get other people to think a bit as well. I loved Lemonade. Beyoncé is perfection. Buy the album (which is available on iTunes now if you weren’t aware), and watch the film. You won’t regret it.


Yes, I am a white woman who was born and raised with all the white privilege one could ask for, and yes, in my lifetime I have been guilty of not understanding what exactly people of color are so bent out of shape about at times. However, over the past year as I have found myself “waking up” to the world and what has actually been going on all around me, one thing that has surprised me the most is the blatant racism that I have noticed in so many aspects of my everyday life. I thought we were living in 2015 not 1950. Yet slowly I have come to see exactly why communities of color are so pissed off, and I too, have become pissed off at the ignorance of so many people that continues to perpetuate the racist world we live in.

Being a St. Louis native, the events of Ferguson last fall really hit home. What also hit home was all of the posts on Facebook that popped up in my feed so quick to praise Darren Wilson and condemn Michael Brown as a thug who got what he deserved. He was black, he shoplifted, and then he attacked an officer, so for too many, it was cut and dry that this boy deserved to die. Death. An entire life lost, and according to so many it was justifiably so. However, let’s change two things. Let’s say he was white and this was had happened in West County instead of Ferguson. I can’t help but think that all of those support Darren Wilson posts I saw on my feed that would have been swiftly replaced with outcry about police brutality and calls for a change in policy.

It is that right there, that irks me the most. People who can’t see the bigger picture of everything that is wrong with our society that led to the almost inevitable events of Ferguson. That because police abuse of power in predominant neighborhoods of color is so accepted in our justice system, that it has become “okay” for an office to use deadly force against an unarmed child because he was “big, black, and scary”.

People don’t seem to understand racism and everything that it encompasses. They don’t understand that it is an issue about HUMAN equality in ALL things. They don’t understand the long list of obstacles that is automatically handed to a person of color simply because they were born with darker skin. Obstacles such as having access to quality education, being targeted by laws and law enforcement, overcoming income inequalities, facing discrimination in the work force, or hell, facing discrimination potentially everywhere you go in the world. Let’s see how well most people would have fared in life if they were born into a world that is constantly reiterating that they are a lesser person. It’s not even just racism towards yourself, it is towards your entire family, towards your community, for generations and generations.

To begin to understand those inequalities is a start to understanding racism and the deep roots that it has in our society. This is where we need to start. With an understanding of ALL the injustices that people of color are subjected to, how those have affected their everyday lives, and how that ultimately effects every situation in their life. It is only when we start to understand theses deep roots present in our everyday lives that we start to see the truly large and destructive divide that racism has cause in our society.

It is so much more than white vs. black. It is advantage vs. disadvantage. It is about feeling like your rights matter just as much as the person next to you, and our constitutional right to feel equal.

Today so many claim they don’t see in color, but what they are really doing is simply saying “Okay, we’re equals now”, without taking any action to fix the underlying issues that have created this huge racial divide. Words without actions is not enough. We must stand beside each other, as equals, and fight back against racism and the current world that it has created.

…So to those who think that the people of Ferguson went too far, who feel that the events that transpired at Mizzou recently were a silly charade, or who think that racism isn’t really an issue in today’s society… You are the ones who don’t understand. You are the ones who need to change. YOU are the problem.

Some of you may have noticed the spike in my political posts lately, and I wanted to take a minute to explain myself and why I have started blasting Bernie Sanders propaganda at you like it is going out of style, and why I’m not going to stop.

Simply put, Bernie Sanders is the first presidential campaign candidate in my lifetime that I believe will truly stand up for what the things that America needs right now, and not just for what America’s wealthiest top 1% want. WE ALL KNOW THAT POLITICIANS ARE BEHOLDEN TO THE MONEY TRAIN THAT PUTS THEM IN OFFICE. Can we please all agree on that? Okay, great.

Can we also all agree that we have slowly turned into we the sheeple, instead of We the People? With the spawn of the internet and endless media streams coming at us, corporate America, and our government for that matter, have found out how easy it can be to distract the American people from what is really going on with our government. Scroll through your Facebook Newsfeed right now. I bet you will find 10 stories about cute animals from various “news sources”. A cute puppy is not news. It is a distraction from actual news. The amount of “distractions” reported by supposedly credible News sources is out of control right now.

I won’t deny it, I myself have been guilty of political ignorance. Politics are generally boring, and the topics that aren’t boring are so heatedly debated that most of us would rather avoid them then to get into an uncomfortable and heated debate with people. People generally don’t like pushing themselves outside of their comfort zone. So yet again, we resign to being sheeple, keeping our opinions to ourselves and letting big corporations have their way, because its easier that way.

Those of you that know me rather well, have probably heard me talk about wanting to start a change over the past year. At times I have even used the phrase “I want to start a revolution”. Last summer I pulled myself out of a life long depression, and with my “awakening”, I felt a strong need to bring change to our society. It is clearly in shambles, and is becoming a world that quite frankly makes me not want to have children, because I can’t even fathom letting them grow up in the self destructing landscape that has become our country.

At first I was rather gung-ho about my revolution idea. Then as I brainstormed various ideas on how to bring about that change over the past year, my campaign slowly lost steam. First off, the very mention of this idea to most people received a laugh along with “You’re too late, we’re already doomed.”

Now I’ll admit, I know the idea of bringing about a political revolution coming from my mouth sounds pretty far fetched. However, I could not believe how many people agreed with me, yet had already given in to the fact that there was nothing we can do about it and for me to try would simply be a waste of my time.

I don’t know about you, but I grew up in America. Land of the free, home of the BRAVE. Not land of the semi free, home of the Meh, we’re doomed and there is nothing we can do about it.


Just as I was starting to give up and give in to the fact that there might not be much I could do to change our otherwise doomed government system… Bernie Sanders announced he was running for president.

Now I’ll admit, I didn’t know Bernie Sanders from Tom Brady when he announced. To be totally honest, when I heard the name, I legitimately thought he was a football coach, and was confused as to why he would be running for president. (Isn’t there a Bernie Sanders in the sports world somewhere??)

After I was corrected and informed about who Bernie was, and what his political stances were… I became highly intrigued.

What’s this you say? A politician that actively argues against large corporations? A politician that believes in fighting for the middle class?? A politician that is actively calling for a political revolution???

Bernie Sanders renewed my faith that real change could actually be possible.

However the disturbing lack of media coverage on such an outspoken and head turning candidate has been the real eye opener for me. Bernie is raising questions and issues that Americans actually care about, and those of us that have been following him are fascinated by it. Absolutely fascinated. How could such a fascination NOT be garnering more media attention?? We all know why. The top 1%, the billionaires and corporations own our media and news outlets. And they’ll be damned if they give Bernie any micro edge of a chance to win this election.

This is an EXTREMELY obvious and EXTREMELY disturbing fact. We can all blatantly see this. How can we, the American people, sit back and let this be okay?? 

I for one, refuse to let this mockery of democracy go on. That is why I will be posting more and more about Bernie Sanders. That is why I will be donating to his campaign, and that is why I will be volunteering my time whenever possible. We cannot sit back and keep being we the sheeple.

This is our chance America. We must stand up and show big business that we will not be manipulated any longer. We must once again be America the Brave, and face the uncomfortableness of going outside our comfort zone. We must take action now, or we risk losing democracy for every generation to come.

Bernie Sanders is our revolution… but he needs you, me, and every American on his side to actually make that happen. 

So let’s do this America! Let’s take back our country!!

#BernieSanders2016 #FeelTheBern #JoinTheRevolution

I want to join the revolution.

Ok, with all the media frenzy over Phil Robertson from Duck Dynasty, I just have to ask, how is America shocked by this?? Do none of you have grandparents?? I don’t know about you, but if you put my grandparents on National TV it would be less than 5 minutes until some race, gender, or nationality is offended. That’s not to say that my grandparents are evil racists, BY ANY MEANS, but they grew up in a different world, a world of black and white (with zero shades of grey), and no matter how much the world changes, it’s not necessarily going to change the way they thought and lived their whole lives. It may not be “right” according to society, but that’s the great thing about America – you can think and do whatever the f*ck you want, no matter what is “right”!!

Watching social media over this past year, one thing has really hit home to me… nothing you say or do on the internet is acceptable. There will always be someone somewhere who disagrees with you and saying the wrong thing can potentially bring a social media lynch mob to anyone’s doorstep (ahem, Justine Sacco). It goes back to the mentality that as a group people are stupid. Social media is the biggest and stupidest group I have ever seen. It’s an unruly mob hiding behind their computers, just spewing hatred and disorder on the world. The kicker? We have all accepted it!! The news is no longer what’s going on in the world, or with our government, no, the news is now focused on Christians that believe marriage is between a man and a woman (WHAT?!?!), or The Woman who didn’t look at herself in the mirror for a year (OH NO SHE DIDN’T?!?!) or The Tiny Puppy Who Survived a Night out in the Cold (AWW!!!). I hate to break it to you, but this my friends, is not news.

In his most recent scandalous rant Phil Robertson is heard encouraging women to marry at 15 or 16 years old. Let’s look at what we know about Phil’s beliefs. He is a devout Christian who believes that men and women should be married before they have sex. Kids are known to start having sex around 15 to 16 years old now, so in Phil’s mind’s eye, they better get married before they go poking it! I mean that’s just what you did in his generation. Really this speech is just his version of Beyonce’s “Single Ladies”. If you like it then you better put a ring on it! Perhaps if Phil had The House of Dereon designing his outfit for that speech, social media would have created a funny meme about it, and we all would have had a good laugh. Instead the lynch mob went the other way on this one, tough break Phil.

I’m not sure if the government is behind Twitter, or Facebook, or Instagram, or whatever, (I mean we all know Al Gore invented the internet in general so I suppose we could blame him),but I do know that social media has created the most ignorant generation America has ever seen. As a group, America is more focused on what Kim Kardashian is wearing than what our government is doing about our national debt crisis. Our generation probably won’t be able to collect the social security we have been paying into our whole lives, and we could quite possibly be headed to a Greater than The Great Depression when we are in our forties, but I mean have you seen that SnoopyBabe cat?? It’s s’cute!!!

WAKE UP AMERICA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Everyone is entitled to their own beliefs. If you don’t agree with someone, then that’s fine, but what social media has forgotten to teach its ignorant mass is R.E.S.P.E.C.T!! Even if you disagree with someone, they are still a human being entitled to their own opinion. If you don’t agree, then respectfully state your own opinion and have a civilized conversation or don’t! Maybe you will change their mind, maybe you won’t. If you don’t treat them with respect though, you will get nowhere, guaranteed.

“This world of ours… must avoid becoming a community of dreadful fear and hate, and be, instead, a proud confederation of mutual trust and respect.” – Dwight D. Eisenhower

Smart words from a smart man. Happy New Year America.