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Last night marked the beginning of what I can feel is going to be an incredible journey for my life.

I hosted a Vision Board class in my home last night. For those not familiar, a vision board can be many things, but it’s purpose is to create a concrete visual of the goals, dreams, and energies that you want to attract in your life. When we have something with those things on it, where we can look at it everyday, and remain focused on what it is that we truly want in our lives, it adds to the power and momentum which is required to bring those things to fruition in our lives.

On a whim, a month or so ago, I decided that I wanted to do a vision board class. I honestly didn’t know what to expect, or how it was going to shape up, but I knew that the New Moon brings the perfect energy for manifesting goals and intentions, so I set the class for the next New Moon, created a Facebook event, invited everyone I knew, and waited to see what happened.

As time drew closer I started researching the energy of this specific New Moon, which was in Taurus. Reading about the patient, grounded energy that Taurus brings, and how it can help us to figure out where we really want to focus our time and attention in life, I knew that the class was going to have all of the energy and exact vibes that I was looking for it to create, both for myself, and for others. It truly all came together very nicely.

Teaching the class last night taught me two things about myself: 1) While I have resisted following in my mother’s footsteps of teaching thus far in my life, there IS in fact an inner kindergarten teacher inside of me who absolutely loves to create fun, inspirational, and crafty learning experiences for people. And 2) There is totally an inner guru inside of me who loves explaining the energy currents, leading meditations, and inspiring people to think outside the box.

I’ll be honest, I have so many ideas and dreams about what I want to do in this life, and lately I have been feeling a bit lost as to what it is I TRULY want to do. What is my core mission? What do I want to focus on? I have been asking myself those questions for the past few weeks trying to figure that out. The answer I have been getting is that I want to inspire people. Which, is great, but what does that mean? What does that look like?

Last night I learned what that looks like. It looks like me directing a group of very smart, inspired, forward thinking women on how to work with the current energies of universe in order to best visualize and set their focus and intentions for the month ahead. My strengths lie in three key areas: 1) Socializing/Networking 2) Planning/Organizing and 3) Outside the Box Thinking. When you combine all of those with the goal of wanting to inspire people… you get one bad ass vision board class teacher. 🙂

I definitely don’t think that vision boarding is where this stops either. It is a great class, and I will definitely be doing it again, probably on a monthly basis actually. However, what last night really showed me is that I am on exactly the right track with what I want to do with my life. I felt alive last night in the best way possible. Now all I want is to help everyone else in the world feel that same way, which is exactly what I was put here to do.

I. Can. Not. Wait!!!!

Here are some of the finished products of last night:

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Stay blessed all,

– Christine

 

 

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It is a very interesting time in terms of the energy in the world right now.

Have you felt as though problems you thought you conquered are creeping back up in your life?

That is the cause of all the retrograde action going on right now. We just got out of Venus retrograde, but Mars and Pluto are still there.

Basically what has been going on, is that the universe has been stirring up deep issues, perhaps ones that we thought we had moved past, to bring them to our attention for true deep healing. It is bringing things up in a manner where it may cause you to react very harshly. This is because the universe is wanting us to recognize the irrationality of these issues, and see beyond our emotions to understand the true underlying feelings and wounds that we have which remain deep within us.

One of my biggest fears is the fear of abandonment. When I give into this fear I become very insecure in relationships, and lose all my confidence and self esteem.

This past week was definitely a test of my ability to control my reactions to this fear.

First, I was stood up for a date with someone whom I had already been out with and established a connection with. He later explained he got sick, and tried calling me but had phone problems, but regardless, sitting there waiting for this man to show up and then realizing he was not going to… was a very strong test of my fear. Normally, I would have reacted and gone off the edge of crazy on this man. However, trying to remain calm and enlightened, I gave him the benefit of the doubt, and told myself I would not react for at least three days. I made it two before my crazy came out. Which was not pretty, BUT, as I was going crazy,  I was witnessing it internally in a way that I had never been  able to before. I watched my crazy self make assumptions, and then go into obsessive state, which ultimately served no purpose and made the whole situation worse. The way that I reacted was not good. However, being able to become aware of where I was going wrong and track it back to my fear of abandonment then gave me the ability to sit with that knowledge and understand myself better so that perhaps next time I will not let my emotions run such a muck based on my perceived reality, was very enlightening.

All of the retrograde energies right now are creating a perfect storm for the Universe to send us opportunities that testing our ability to trust and have faith and trust that the Universe is working in our favor. If we can remember this, that makes its so much easier to be less reactive when we face perceived challenges.

So if you find yourself facing some challenges right now, remember to trust that this is an opportunity from the universe to recognize your own part in creating these issues in your life. Remember to pause, reflect, and dig into what you are really feeling behind your initial reactions. What is it that you really need from the situation that you are not getting?

And if you do react, go crazy, get angry, whatever the case may be, remember that it is okay. We are only human, and we are not perfect. Don’t beat yourself up about it, have compassion for yourself, and remember to forgive yourself. Recognizing that the challenge is truly within is a great feat all on its own, so chin up!

This was mostly a pep talk for myself, but I hope it helps a few others out there as well.

Happy Monday all!

– Christine

 

I am at a loss today for what to even say today.

Our world is so very clearly messed up.

Corporate greed is annihilating basic human rights.

We have a government dead set on taking us into WWIII.

Billionaires are investing in luxury bunkers at rapid rates.

Are we on the edge of the end? Are we one tip of the scale from the end of the world?

I typically like to keep an optimistic attitude and not pay attention to the news cycles, however, I feel like that has been incredibly hard the past few days.

We have let the power hungry take the reigns to our country, to our lives, and run wild with it.

Now we are somehow at a point where convincing our own people that these power hungry monsters don’t have their best interests at heart is a real thing.

People who have blindly accepted lies as truth their entire lives, so they have no basis for real truth within their lives.

They are easily manipulated, and can’t see that they are losing everything in their life because of their blind trust in the ultimate con men.

Our planet is dying, and yet we are arguing over who owns what part of it. The sad part is, soon there will be nothing of value left to even fight over.

We are very much at a time of great awakening.

This I know, and I also know that we are simply being made more aware of the evils in our world right now, but that doesn’t mean there actually is more. In fact, I would care to argue that everyday more and more people are understanding that what we need is a shift into heart centered living, and they are doing just that.

Keep believing. Keep focusing within yourself, and working to better your own life. That is what we all must focus on, and within that, the changes will come.

Most importantly, keep being kind. Show compassion to all those in your life, including yourself. It is already a cruel world, we do not need more harshness on top of it all.

Have patience, for the night may now appear very dark, but the morning light is never far away.

Peace and love to you all,

– Christine

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Here we are, 97 days into 2017, and I have completed 50 blogs for the year up to this point. That is certainly less than I had originally planned, given my ‘365 Days of Writing’ project was all about forcing myself to write everyday, however, it is a heck of a lot more blogs than I have ever posted before, so I’m not going to beat myself up about it too much. If it takes me 2 years to complete ‘365 Days of Writing’ then so be it. I do have these grand plans in my mind that I will one day sit down and play catch up, writing several blogs in a day, to the point where I am eventually back on track. Given my success rate of posting daily is at 50% though, I do not foresee this grand scheme to get myself back on track ever really coming to fruition.

I digress.

I am thankful to all of you who have joined me on this journey thus far, and who continue to read and offer words of encouragement along the way.

I have always known that I like to write. Forcing myself to do so in a more regulated manner has shown me that it is entirely possible for me to write and maintain a blog presence. While writing everyday is certainly a challenge, writing a few times a week is most certainly doable.

I am looking forward to where this journey takes me.

Have a good weekend all!

– Christine

 

Real talk: My legs are a bit unsteady since they are plated together, full of metal rods, and uneven. (Which if you want to read about you can do so here.) It’s fine, I can walk, I can do everything I want to do at this point in life, however, my legs for sure have an expiration date. Within 5-10 years I will need a hip replacement in both hips, those currently last for about 10 years… so I’m in no hurry to get those done. My one knee has also been bothering me a bit more lately. So with all of this, and just general getting older, I’ve been starting to feel these aches and pains a bit more than normal lately. Over the past few weeks, with moving, and everything going on, all of it has been a bit sore. I stopped playing volleyball because indoor is just too rough on me. I told myself I would just take it easy, but volleyball is my love… I do not know how to take it easy, nor do I want to, not for now at least. It’s okay, I will pick it back up with sand in the summer. Life will go on.

My point: I am grateful my legs even work and I am alive, but some days they are still a bit janky and it can be painful to do things… like walk or move a lot.

At least that’s how I used to feel, until I got my new special shoes, KLOMPEN!!!

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These amazing shoes came from my friend Rachel, who got them in the Netherlands where this type in particular is used by gardeners and farmers, while working outside. Slowly the wooden insole forms to your foot and is recommended by orthopedics. Which, would explain why when I put them on, my step is pain free!

I am so excited, I have been coming home from work each day, putting on the klompen and been klomping all over my house. I sound like a horse trotting through the house, I can’t even lie. It has been amazing for my legs though!

Anyways, that’s my excitement for the day, my legs don’t hurt when I wear my special klompen shoes, if your legs hurt, maybe you should give them a try! 🙂

Sincerely,

– Christine, Klompen Fanatic

Today marks day 99 of my sobriety mission, so I thought I would take a minute to reflect on the journey so far. When I started this mission, I wasn’t really sure what I wanted to accomplish. In my mind I set a goal of 90 days and decided I would re-evaluate things at that point. So here we are just over 90 days, and so much has changed in my life.

First and foremost, I bought a house. Granted I had been building towards this goal for most of 2016, but I still think that being sober really helped me push myself these past few months to be able to achieve all that I really had to do with this house. Including saving every last cent, because houses ain’t cheap! So the money savings has definitely been very beneficial, but the time and energy savings has been crucial to my adulting success as well.

I think the biggest benefit to not drinking though has been that I am never hung over. My weekend mornings are filled with projects and productivity instead of sleeping until noon, and then stuffing my face with bad food because I have no will power not to. Which brings me to another added benefit, I don’t find myself dying to eat anything and everything when I come home from a night out, which has been great for my waistline! Not to mention I just physically feel a lot better. Drinking is just poisoning your body, and keeping my body toxin free for 99 days has left me feeling pretty good.

Another benefit to not drinking? I remember everything! I remember new people who I meet when I am out. I remember every conversations that I have when I am out. I remember everything that everyone else who is drinking does or says, so I can remind them about it later when I know they aren’t going to remember what their drunk self actually said. Not that I was blacking out left and right before, but my nights always ended on a bit of a fuzzy note. It’s a good feeling going home knowing what happened, and knowing I won’t wake up in the morning full of regret for the choices that drunk me made the night before.

That brings me to another point, I have less regret! Being able to maintain my self control all night long leads to much less regret over my words and actions the next day. I definitely don’t miss the feeling of waking up and dreading looking at my phone for fear of what drunk me decided to text out into the world the night before.

Maintaining my self control to not drink in the first place has not been without challenge. There have been plenty of nights over the past 99 days where I have wanted to have a drink. Drinking “takes the edge off”, sort of. It is an easy way for us check out of reality for a little while. Spend 99 days in reality, and trust me, you will be quite eager for a break from it. That is life though. Life is hard, it is challenging, it is a struggle!! Everyday I make it through that struggle without needing to take a break though… makes me feel stronger and more capable of handling whatever challenges life has to throw my way.

To be honest, not drinking has mostly opened my eyes to the fact that as a society we have a major drinking problem. I don’t want to criticize everyone who drinks, however, if you are having more than 2 drinks every time you go out, I wonder if you have ever stopped to question why. What benefits is drinking bringing to your life? I know its the social thing to do, it makes you feel a little more loose, maybe it even makes you feel like you are having more fun than what you really are when you are out. At the end of it all though when you have had one too many and you start acting a bit foolish, what good are you really doing for yourself at that point?

I really don’t want to come off sounding judgmental of those who want to drink, but after making this journey myself, I can’t help but to want it for everyone else around me. I will admit, as much as I have wanted to drink, deep down I really haven’t because I know I will just be bringing out a lesser version of myself. As someone who is very into raising my consciousness and expanding my mind into higher levels of life… doing anything which brings myself down a few notches mentally is pretty counter intuitive to my overall goals for life. I have figured out how I achieve more in life, and I can’t help but want that for everyone else.

Also, it wasn’t until I wasn’t drinking that I realized how much alcohol is promoted in our world. As someone who believes that higher powers are continuously trying to suppress the masses, it has been very eye opening to realize how big of a role alcohol actually plays in keeping people locked into the lower levels of consciousness. Especially in St. Louis, home of Anheuser Busch, you are hard pressed to go more than a block or two anywhere in the city without seeing some kind of subliminal message to drink alcohol. We are being programmed to always drink. Anything the powers that be are trying to program me to do… are exactly the things I’m keen on staying away from these days. Just some food for thought.

Bottom line: I am 99 days sober, and I feel fantastic. Yes, life has been admittedly a bit harder, however, it’s so true, no pain, no gain! Discovering that facing life struggles head on, and sober, is the best way to level up in life… has been a wonderful and very welcome reward in my life. I can’t wait to see where this journey takes me.

Much love to you all!

– Christine

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